Day 4 of treatments.

A slap in the face for sure...

It's day four and I really feel worse, unfortunately, than I thought I would this early on.  I guess that means the chemo is kicking ass which is good.  I was walking through the hospital going from the Dana Farber Center to the Yawkey center feeling like crap when a young girl no older than 1 year came by in a stroller with her mom.  It really ripped at my heart seeing her whispy hair and the drawn look on her face.  It just isn't fair, it just isn't right.  I know at that point it made my simple little case of self importance melt away.  The nausea I felt, the dizzy feelings seemed meaningless next to that little girl coming by on her way from radiation.  I have thought of her many times since I saw her and without knowing it she has become an inspiration for me.

You see a lot at this clinic that really puts things in perspective.  I have a beautiful and healthy family, extended family and friends, and a very positive outlook on the outcome of my disease.  There are way to many people that don't have any of this to fall back on.  I am now considering myself blessed with a small case of bad luck on the side.  I'll take that with all your support any day of the week.

I was able to make it into work yesterday for a few hours and tie off with my team.  Thanks for picking up the slack and even though I'm constantly reminded by my management team that there wasn't much to make up for, I know you guys are kicking butt and doing everything you can to cover.  I appreciate it very much.  It was good to see everyone again.  I only lasted till about 2:30, but since I was in Boston at 7am, it sure felt like a full day.

Denise is heading in with me today to look at a place to stay closer to the city.  I can't handle the travel already.  I didn't think it would get to me this quickly but holy cow did it ever.  The last few weeks they have a hotel near the hospital that has rates for patients so we are going to reach out to them today.

I am also bringing my Bob Seger CD to radiation.  Yesterday was Eric Clapton.  He's ok, but not when they are playing one long guitar solo for 10 minutes.  Too much of a good thing.  With Bob these sessions will fly by.  I have one nurse who never heard of Bob Seger.  First off, really?  Second, I promised she will like him.  All she knows about him is Tom Cruise danced in his underwear to one of his songs.  She wasn't impressed.  I told her that's his worst song ever so be ready.

On the negative side of things, day 5 and 6 I'm told is when the flu like symptoms kick in.  That sounds like a nice topper to the nausea feeling I have most of the day, even with the meds.

Please post your name with the comments you leave.  It's hard to tell on some of them who it is.  Lots of codenames.  Thanks for the posts, keep them coming, they are the best!